John Lackey had just suffered his third defeat in as many starts, allowing nine runs on nine hits and five walks, in last night's hideous 9-3 loss to the Blue Jays before a Rogers Centre crowd of 19,163. The postgame inquisition in front of his locker was drawing to a close when a clearly frustrated and agitated Lackey, who had dropped to 2-5 (8.01 ERA), concluded his terse remarks rather awkwardly, blurting, "Everything in my life [expletive] right now, to be honest with you.'' The statement hung in the air like the last of the 118 pitches he threw, an 82-mile-per-hour slider John McDonald smacked down the line in left for a two-run double. It was the crowning blow of Lackey's meltdown in a five-run rally with two out in the seventh inning in which he was charged with all five runs on two hits and three walks.