He couldn't bear to watch. For nearly two years, when Chris Bosh glanced at a snippet of his old life -- an NBA highlight of a winning 3, a gala with his ex-teammates gliding down the red carpet, resplendent in their invincibility -- he'd quickly turn away, wincing from the torment of an old wound ripped open again. "Too difficult,'' he says. "Too painful.'' Bosh was in the midst of constructing a Hall of Fame career when, in February 2015, team doctors discovered a blood clot in his lung. It ended his season -- and, had it gone undetected much longer, could well have ended his life. He returned the following October to resume his career, but after a loss against the San Antonio Spurs on Feb. 9, 2016, he was sidelined again. Subsequent tests revealed another blood clot, this time in his calf. The Miami Heat shut down their five-time All-Star, and after exhaustive testing and treatment, announced in September 2016 that Bosh had failed his physical. Miami's front office, concerned for their player's future as a father and a husband, not a basketball forward, told him they could no longer risk putting him on the court. Just like that, it was over. No more championship trophies to hoist, no more All-Star teams to make, no more gold medals or endorsements or private jet excursions with the guys. Bosh retreated home to his wife, Adrienne, and their four small children, plunked himself on his leather sofa and asked aloud, "What the hell just happened?" "It's pretty much like cruising along, going 150 miles an hour in your Porsche -- and then you fall into a hole,'' Bosh says. He's still figuring out how to climb his way out. It has been almost a year since the NBA and the National Basketball Players Association ruled that Bosh's clotting issues were career-ending, and it has been two years since he played professional basketball. Yet he continues to discuss the possibility of a return next season, provided he can find a willing partner to employ him. Bosh says "a few guys" have reached out to him about playing, but would not name them. Asked how he plans to prove to skeptical franchises that his health would not be at risk if he donned their uniform, Bosh answered, "That's on them.'' Bosh's medical records with the Heat are sealed; even though other NBA teams have not had access to them, many have already reached their conclusion.