Seething through his smile, Cleveland pitcher Ubaldo Jimenez looks back in anger at his divorce from the Rockies.

He is ticked that Colorado did not show him the faith or money given shortstop Troy Tulowitzki and outfielder Carlos Gonzalez. Jimenez resents any suggestion his slow fade from shining all-star was the result of a lack of professionalism. The 28-year-old pitcher won't forget how the Rockies disrespected him on his way out of town.

"Of course I was mad. I mean, I'm a human being," Jimenez said, as we stood in a Cactus League clubhouse after his latest outing at spring training. An ice bag cooled his right shoulder. An unfamiliar bitterness crept into his voice.

Nearly eight months after being dumped by the Rockies, Jimenez still struggles to gain command of his fastball and make sense of the trade. Divorce can be messy. But I'm not sure the breakup angst that Frank and Jamie McCourt inflicted on the Los Angeles Dodgers can match the emotional scars left on Jimenez.

Long before Rockies general manager Dan O'Dowd traded Jimenez to the Indians last summer, the trust was broken between the most talented pitcher in franchise history and management. Truth be known, Jimenez wanted out of Colorado.

"If someone doesn't want to be here," Tulowitzki said Friday, "we always say, 'Please, go up to the manager and tell him you want to leave or that you don't think this is the best place for you.' That was kind of the case with him."