"Ryan Howard hasn't watched a replay of the fateful called strike that ended the Phillies' 2010 season in Game 6 of the National League Championship Series and sent the Giants sprinting to the pitching mound to swarm closer Brian Wilson.

Howard lived the moment. He doesn't need to see it again.

"I don't really care to see because you can't go back and change it," he said. "I'm focused on this year."

But just because Howard hasn't relived the experience doesn't mean it's been forgotten. In fact, the pain and disappointment lingered far longer than he expected."